While i'm feeling oke from the anxiety, 2019 is really a year that i hope to be a great year for me. But it only lasts 3 month before i had to let go my father figure Uncle, my dearest Uncle who always been there for me. I feel numb, shocked and sad, trying hard to control my emotion, trying hard to be strong. i kept saying be tough, be tough, be tough but to be honest i can't do it. The feeling mixed with the memories with him playing on my mind and it kept repeating itself and i still can't believe he's gone, passed away. I was on my way to meet my friend after visited him in hospital. But then i've got telephone from nurse in hospital that my Uncle condition going drop. I straight go back to hospital. My sister, my family all telling me to let him go, and after waited and hesitate finally i whispered to him " Pak, if you want to go, though it is hard for me, go in peace Pak. Sorry if i've had made a lot of mistakes that makes you angry and dissapointe